I do not know what it is for my heart to race

I do not know what it is for my heart to race

Because it does not ever seem to slow down.

Never is there a day in which I am without anxiety,

and yet the words reach out

and tell me

Do not worry.

Do not worry?

All I do is worry.

Worry is the default. Worry is my bread and butter, the air

I cannot breathe

Because my brain runs far faster

Than my body can catch

Than my lungs can inhale

than my spirit can find and soothe

and so I must hear again the words

Do not worry.

I worry, and so I must listen to those words.

I must accept that my heart is already guarded

That my steps are already guided

That my mind is already equipped

Even though I fear

and run

and worry.

Because I worry

I must listen once more.

Do not worry.

Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Phillipians 4:6-7

About grantimusmax

Grant Barnes, aka Grantimus Maximus, aka The Nerdcore Theologian. Currently, he is a PhD Candidate at the Graduate Theological Union at Berkeley, California. He is a graduate of Perkins School of Theology with a Masters Degree in Divinity. He graduated from Texas State University Cum Laude with a Bachelor's degree in English, minor in History. He watches way too many movies, reads too many books, listens to too much music, and plays too many video games to ever join the mundane reality people claim is the "Real World." He rejects your reality, and replaces it with a vision of what could be, a better one, shaped by his love for God.
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