The heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants

but what does the heart need?

There are many things I need but do not have

and many things I have that I do not need

so where do the two meet?

God gave manna, light and flaky

temporary but nourishing

to the people who were in need.

What is my manna?

Were I to have this miraculous lembas

would I abuse it?

Or would I savor it, and understand that it is not because I earned it

that I have it

but because

it was given?

A paradox of an earned gift through work and worship.

I do not pretend to know what this all means.

I know what I want.

But perhaps I should rely on a God who gives what I need.


31 Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ 32 For it is the Gentiles who strive for all these things; and indeed your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.

Matthew 6:31-32

About grantimusmax

Grant Barnes, aka Grantimus Maximus, aka The Nerdcore Theologian. Currently, he is a PhD Candidate at the Graduate Theological Union at Berkeley, California. He is a graduate of Perkins School of Theology with a Masters Degree in Divinity. He graduated from Texas State University Cum Laude with a Bachelor's degree in English, minor in History. He watches way too many movies, reads too many books, listens to too much music, and plays too many video games to ever join the mundane reality people claim is the "Real World." He rejects your reality, and replaces it with a vision of what could be, a better one, shaped by his love for God.
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