This Kingdom that I seek
is here and not here, a paradox that plagues my dreams
like a hologram that fizzles and fades
as soon as my hand reaches for it.
Is this kingdom real?
I hope it’s real. I want it to be real.
I believe in it. Does that make it real?
Again, being told to worry
and seeking a paradoxical vision place
does not ease my mind in the least.
I want to believe, but I am troubled by what unbelief holds me back
as a chain that binds me to my worries.
The kingdom is a joy unsought for, and yet I must seek.
The kingdom is a pearl of great value. The kingdom is a treasure in a field
stumbled upon and worth greater than words can estimate.
As I seek this kingdom, believe in this kingdom,
yearn for this kingdom
I pray for my place in it to be revealed.
34 “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.